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Royal Botanical Gardens Royal Botanical Gardens  I really like how this photo came out. Strong colours.  This shot is beautiful. Too bad my camera overheated and died after this photo. |
Sunday, 22 August 2010
Testing out my new camera
a journey to self discovery
reading back on all my blogs since 2008, I have realised that I have grown and matured a lot in the past few years. in fact since working full time this year as a teacher I have developed into the person I want to be. I have also taken the plunge to deminish my anxities all at once. i have booked a trip to America!!!
I am someone who loves home and hates to travel. I am not sure if it is the people I travel with and my moods that make travelling so unpleasant, or if it is travelling itself.
Since high school I have been dreaming of travelling to America. My dream is too see where John Lennon died in New York. Every year I go to travel expos and get brouchues of all the places I want to go too. And every year parents and friends push me to consider going overseas. I kept telling them "when im ready i will".
the beginning of this year I started my full time job as teacher and have grown personally. in the back of my mind I realised that I may be ready to go overseas but I still had a hint of anixety. I did my research on tours and the places I wanted to go too (L.A, San Fran, Vegas and New York). I would have loved to travel with a friend but in all honesty, I wanted to go by myself to face my fears and anxieties of meeting new people, being independent, exploring new places and experiencing overseas travel at a whole new level. i wanted an opportunity to go on a journey of self discovery and prove to myself I CAN DO THIS!
I still had the fear, and couldnt make myself book the trip. I had a panic attack in Flight Centre getting brochures on American tours. Can I do it? Then it happened.
One weekend in April a family friend came over to say goodbye before he headed off on a tour of Europe by himself for numerous months (mind you as I write this, he is planning on coming back in Jan!!). He said that I have to bite the bullet and just go!! I was still unsure and replied with the usual answer "when im ready". My dad turned to me and said (his words still ring in my ears) "you will never go overseas. you are a sayer, not a doer. you will spend your life going to travel expos for brouchues and never make it"
I was in shock. But it was something I needed to hear to make myself make the decision. That night I hoped onto the Contiki website and found heaps of girls my age (teachers too) going on this particular Contiki tour to America by themselves. I felt much more comfortable and decided it was time to face my fears.
The next day my parents went to the theatre and I was home alone. I drove to my local travel agency and booked my Contiki trip to America!!! (and I didnt have a panic attack!!). I came home and put the paper work on the kitchen bench. My parents came home and freaked out!!! Lets just say Dad was in so much shock he didnt talk to me for a few days, whereas my Mum was so proud (but scared inside). My Dad came to the realisation this trip is very important for me and has already written a list of all the things he wants me to do and buy. He also reminds me and tells everyone that if it wasnt for his reverse psychology I would not be going on a plane to L.A.
I am very excited for this journey and wish I could jump on a plane tomorrow!
Only 22 weeks to go!!!
Miss Beckz
I am someone who loves home and hates to travel. I am not sure if it is the people I travel with and my moods that make travelling so unpleasant, or if it is travelling itself.
Since high school I have been dreaming of travelling to America. My dream is too see where John Lennon died in New York. Every year I go to travel expos and get brouchues of all the places I want to go too. And every year parents and friends push me to consider going overseas. I kept telling them "when im ready i will".
the beginning of this year I started my full time job as teacher and have grown personally. in the back of my mind I realised that I may be ready to go overseas but I still had a hint of anixety. I did my research on tours and the places I wanted to go too (L.A, San Fran, Vegas and New York). I would have loved to travel with a friend but in all honesty, I wanted to go by myself to face my fears and anxieties of meeting new people, being independent, exploring new places and experiencing overseas travel at a whole new level. i wanted an opportunity to go on a journey of self discovery and prove to myself I CAN DO THIS!
I still had the fear, and couldnt make myself book the trip. I had a panic attack in Flight Centre getting brochures on American tours. Can I do it? Then it happened.
One weekend in April a family friend came over to say goodbye before he headed off on a tour of Europe by himself for numerous months (mind you as I write this, he is planning on coming back in Jan!!). He said that I have to bite the bullet and just go!! I was still unsure and replied with the usual answer "when im ready". My dad turned to me and said (his words still ring in my ears) "you will never go overseas. you are a sayer, not a doer. you will spend your life going to travel expos for brouchues and never make it"
I was in shock. But it was something I needed to hear to make myself make the decision. That night I hoped onto the Contiki website and found heaps of girls my age (teachers too) going on this particular Contiki tour to America by themselves. I felt much more comfortable and decided it was time to face my fears.
The next day my parents went to the theatre and I was home alone. I drove to my local travel agency and booked my Contiki trip to America!!! (and I didnt have a panic attack!!). I came home and put the paper work on the kitchen bench. My parents came home and freaked out!!! Lets just say Dad was in so much shock he didnt talk to me for a few days, whereas my Mum was so proud (but scared inside). My Dad came to the realisation this trip is very important for me and has already written a list of all the things he wants me to do and buy. He also reminds me and tells everyone that if it wasnt for his reverse psychology I would not be going on a plane to L.A.
I am very excited for this journey and wish I could jump on a plane tomorrow!
Only 22 weeks to go!!!
Miss Beckz
Monday, 4 January 2010
new years resolutions 2010
Here is my list for 2010
reduce or demlish all anxiety towards new people, new places, new experiences, new relationships, love, intimacy and failure
have no more fear
become the teacher I want to become
Don't let the litte things get to me
Be selfish- career first, relationships can wait
Be happy
reduce or demlish all anxiety towards new people, new places, new experiences, new relationships, love, intimacy and failure
have no more fear
become the teacher I want to become
Don't let the litte things get to me
Be selfish- career first, relationships can wait
Be happy
goats milk soap? yes or no?
The last 4 years I have had the worst acne in the world! I have tried everything from commerical supermarket brands....to Lush products (which are great and smell yummy, but werent ideal for my acne prone skin)...to seeing a Natropath for allergies...to trying out Proactiv....I never had acne not even a pimple when I was in high school, but the moment i left school and started a new chapter in my life at University, my skin went down hill.
After loads of money and wasting my time...nothing worked. The brand Dermalogica worked for a bit, but the chemicals in them just didnt react well with my skin. Its an awesome brand, and I reccommend their Clearing Gel, but after 4 years of using their products, it didnt work.
I was frustrated, annoyed and completely depressed. After 4 years though, the reality of having crap skin didnt worry me too much. I went to Uni, got a degree (2 actually), had relationships....and succeeded in my career. But it would be nice to have glowing skin without having to cover up my flaws with foundation all the time (although MAC foundation has been my lifesaver)
One night i was watching tv, and they had a story on the benefits of goats milk soap. it works wonders for eczema and other skin conditions. So after doing a bit of research on the benefits of goats milk soap on skin and acne I gave it a go.
It has been over a month now, and there has been an improvment in my skin. It is soft...moisturised...and i rarely get pimples anymore. And if i change produts even for a week (like I did when I went camping) my face would flare up. Two days back on goats milk soap, my face has calmed down especially the redness. I still have my scarring which I have been told will take years to heal unless I have cosmetic surgery which I am not a fan of.
Goats milk soap has really helped my skin begin the journey of recovery. Today I bought the moisturiser to see if it will help my skin even more when combined with the soap. I have thrown out all the crappy products I have bought in the past that are full of chemicials and horrible stuff for our skin.
My skin used to be great...now it has changed to oily and acne prone...on top of that it is extremely sensitive. Goats milk soap is perfect for my sensitive skin. Fingers crossed in the months ahead, my skin improves a lot more than it has already!
Miss Beckz
lover of goats milk soap
Has anyone else used goats milk soap on their skin, especially acne prone skin?
After loads of money and wasting my time...nothing worked. The brand Dermalogica worked for a bit, but the chemicals in them just didnt react well with my skin. Its an awesome brand, and I reccommend their Clearing Gel, but after 4 years of using their products, it didnt work.
I was frustrated, annoyed and completely depressed. After 4 years though, the reality of having crap skin didnt worry me too much. I went to Uni, got a degree (2 actually), had relationships....and succeeded in my career. But it would be nice to have glowing skin without having to cover up my flaws with foundation all the time (although MAC foundation has been my lifesaver)
One night i was watching tv, and they had a story on the benefits of goats milk soap. it works wonders for eczema and other skin conditions. So after doing a bit of research on the benefits of goats milk soap on skin and acne I gave it a go.
It has been over a month now, and there has been an improvment in my skin. It is soft...moisturised...and i rarely get pimples anymore. And if i change produts even for a week (like I did when I went camping) my face would flare up. Two days back on goats milk soap, my face has calmed down especially the redness. I still have my scarring which I have been told will take years to heal unless I have cosmetic surgery which I am not a fan of.
Goats milk soap has really helped my skin begin the journey of recovery. Today I bought the moisturiser to see if it will help my skin even more when combined with the soap. I have thrown out all the crappy products I have bought in the past that are full of chemicials and horrible stuff for our skin.
My skin used to be great...now it has changed to oily and acne prone...on top of that it is extremely sensitive. Goats milk soap is perfect for my sensitive skin. Fingers crossed in the months ahead, my skin improves a lot more than it has already!
Miss Beckz
lover of goats milk soap
Has anyone else used goats milk soap on their skin, especially acne prone skin?
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