How can a relationship work when it is based on lies?
A relationship should be honest.....out in the open.....it shouldn't be full of little white lies.
For the past week I haven't been talking on the phone, smsing and emailing that guy who i met at my friends party. It was a complete shock that he contacted me....and i was nice to him and answered his phone calls and replied to his emails.
However i have been throwing in little white lies....number one: i gave him my other email address so we couldn't talk on msn. he told me to get msn, but i told him i prefer my yahoo email address. one big lie.
The other lie is that i told him we will catch up, and my friend and i will come to the country on the holidays. second lie. i wont be going to the country, and i wont be catching up with him. if it happens, it happens. but at the moment i dont really want too.
everything else i tell him is completely true. i don't hide things about me. but it is small things like that. i am protecting myself. i think it is a big step he has my mobile number. i don't know this guy very well. he is a friend of a friend which i suppose is ok. but i am not giving him all my personal contacts. if something bad were to happen, i would have to change everything...including my personal email...and my mobile phone number!
i dont want to go through that. is what im doing normal? i just feel horrible. another thing i told him, is i don't like talking on the phone. while it is true....if i liked him, dont u think i could talk hours on end? i can't. thats not me. its at the point where i sometimes don't answer the phone....its not bc i dont wanna talk to him...its mainly bc he calls at the worst times. i just spoke to him b4 for 30 mins....i am being nice....but nothing is going to happen! nothing.....maybe in the future...if we happen to cross eachothers paths....but at the moment....i dont want to be in a relationship...esp long distance....
the kid is nice....but not for me.....what the hell do i do?
miss beckz
