add this to your list of things you do before you die....

Last weekend I went on a holiday with my best friend to celebrate each other turning 21.

We went to Sydney and enjoyed every minute of it. We visited Bondi Beach and Darling Harbour. We saw all the sites, Sydney Opera House and the Sydney Harbour Bridge.

But the one thing that sticks out in my mind as one of the most memorable moments on our trip was climbing the Sydney Harbour Bridge!

My best friend has been mentioning the climb for the past 6 months, but because of my fear of heights I stubbornly refused to even consider it.

When we were at Sydney we visited the Information place to grab pamphlets of activities to do. The guy there helped us with things to do. My best friend is adventurous so he recommended scenic flights etc. Whereas for me he recommended history tours and Newtown which is very alternative as I am the relaxing and unadventurous type. My idea of a good time is sitting by the harbour or on a cruise drinking cocktails. Although I did want to give the Jet Boat around the harbour a go!

While we were deciding how to spend our day, my best friend mentioned the Bridge Climb. The guy at the information place told us it is something you MUST do while at Sydney! As stubborn as I am I refused to even play along with the thought of climbing the bridge. My best friend was so excited and really wanted to do it. She was even going to do it by herself if I refused to join her. The guy at the information place went all patriotic about climbing a National Landmark etc etc etc. So i gave in.

We sent off on a ferry to the bridge climb. I was so scared but excited in side. How bad can it be? We arrived and changed into our climbing gear and went through the training. We passed and were off to climb the Sydney Harbour Bridge!

Within 10 minutes I was nearly in tears, and we hadn't even started climbing the bridge! The walk away to the bridge was above a main road, was very narrow and it looked scary!!! Although we were hooked on and couldn't go anywhere, my fear was still strong! I kept going mainly because I wanted to achieve something in life, and also because there was no refund!

We kept going and then we came across ladders! Four flights of ladders! It seemed okay until you actually starting climbing up them. You could not avoid looking down! And below you could see, hear and smell the Sydney traffic traveling along the bridge!

At this point I was by myself as I couldn't catch up with the group, and the people behind me were too slow. Finally we made it to.....the bridge arch. Yes. That is right. Only the bridge arch. Luckily the worst part was over. The walk up to the peak of the bridge was great fun as the walk way was wide and we couldn't fall off!

The view was amazing I had never seen anything like it! The wind was horrible but it made the experience fun as we let go of the railings and pretended we were superman (still attached to the bridge of course!). We got our photos taken and spent majority of the time admiring the view! We also sung happy birthday to my best friend and another woman. Then it was time to climb (or walk) back down the bridge to safety.

After the climb I felt a sense of accomplishment and that I achieved something in my life. It is something I will definitely tell my children and grandchildren! I climbed the Sydney Harbour Bridge with my best friend despite having a fear of heights! It has truly changed who I am today.

Which is why I am telling you to get off the couch and make your way to Sydney to experience something amazing!

Miss Beckz

when does the word "no" mean yes?

There are some people on this planet that simply do not understand plain simple English. For example the word "no"

According to the dictionary "no" is defined as 'a word used to express dissent, denial, or refusal'.

Can that definition get any more simpler? It seems that this common word is not comprehended by some members of the human race.

The reason why I am writing this is because I witnessed something on my travels that left me dumb founded that some people out there do not respect other people's wishes, especially when it comes to denial or the word "no".

My best friend and I went on a holiday to celebrate each other turning 21. We spent one night drinking and dancing at a pub/ club. The night was early and we were just starting to put on our dancing shoes. Half way through the night we were approached by this guy who wanted to dance with this. Fair enough. There is no harm in dancing. As the night went on this fella became very comfortable with our crowd especially
towards my best friend.

He was dancing very closed to her and was whispering in her ear. Above the music I could hear my best friend telling this guy that she had met someone and wasn't interested. They continued dancing, however the guy kept trying to be with my friend despite the numerous times my best friend said "no".

It got to the point where is ruined our night and I was so close to blasting the guy and telling him to (un)politely remove himself from our personal space. He could not understand my best friend's request of "no", and worst of all he did not respect her wishes.

Unfortunately for the guy, my best friend used her kick boxing skills and kneed him in his family jewels (not too hard mind you). He was in a state of shock and left the venue. I could not believe that is what it took for my best friend to communicate to him that he was not interested and to leave her alone. She was out enjoying her birthday and did not need someone ruining her night.

After the incident, our night was ruined so we decided to leave. Also because we were afraid he would return. We left the bar/ club and laughed our way home.

It is wise to remember that "no" actually means "NO!"

Miss Beckz

Little Big Planet

I want that game ASAP!!!!!!

missbeckz

it is this time of the year

I have made it! I have survived! One month of studying and exams tapping on my shoulder are over and done with! I had my final exam today and walked out wanting to run back in and do the exam again! It just didn't feel right. It took 90 minutes to complete the exam and when I walked out I had to pinch myself. It didn't feel like my exams were over and I felt as though I rushed the exam just to get out and be free! I also had to pinch myself because my three year degree is done! I have completed a degree (hopefully if I pass).

So here I am, at my desk thinking " I have all this spare time, where do I start?"

First I asked my boss for more shifts at work, and she said she could only give my one extra shift, which is cool by me! So I have extra work covered, what else can I get up too?

I thought I would write on my blog since I haven't been on it for months, only when I was in a bad mood and wrote what was on my mind!

This week is of course a massive week for me, which I am glad I don't start work until next week! this weekend is my 21st first birthday and it involves a lot of 'squeals' and organising! During exam period I would day dream about what to do, and begin writing lists, and going shopping. Now I have all this free time I don't know where to start! (!!)

The next few days I will be shopping for things for my 21st like deocations etc! Thursday will be the last I will be a brunette as I have decided to go blonde (well not fully blonde, just a few tips here and there :P). I want to start my life as a 21 year old a bit different! HaHa! So that is the first exciting thing this week!

After that I will be partying and living life!

:D

so excited!!! :D :D

Miss Beckz

that's what friends do right?

so, he is leaving my life.

simple that is fine. go ahead and live the dream you wanna live. there is nothing anyone can do to stop you and change your mind.

i accept your choice and support you.

that is my train of thought at the moment. my friend is leaving and i utterly support his decision to live his dream. however, there is something that i am not impressed about. his attitude towards me. what i don't understand is that he is leaving for a very, very long time and does not have the decency to spend time with me, talk to me, or even treat me well.

i have to admit our friendship has never been that close, and i understand that. it is fine with me. but when you are leaving for so long the least you could do is be nice to me, invite me over and spend time with me before you leave. what i believe to be a solid friendship is not what we have, at all.

it feels like i need to impress you to gain your friendship. you're friends with everyone else but for some reason i am treated differently. and i also hate the fact that i have to initiate everything. for once, can't you pick up that phone, call me and ask if i wanna hang out before you hop onto that plane and leave my life?

that's what friends do right?

miss beckz

a question to ask myself

How can a relationship work when it is based on lies?

A relationship should be honest.....out in the open.....it shouldn't be full of little white lies.

For the past week I haven't been talking on the phone, smsing and emailing that guy who i met at my friends party. It was a complete shock that he contacted me....and i was nice to him and answered his phone calls and replied to his emails.

However i have been throwing in little white lies....number one: i gave him my other email address so we couldn't talk on msn. he told me to get msn, but i told him i prefer my yahoo email address. one big lie.

The other lie is that i told him we will catch up, and my friend and i will come to the country on the holidays. second lie. i wont be going to the country, and i wont be catching up with him. if it happens, it happens. but at the moment i dont really want too.

everything else i tell him is completely true. i don't hide things about me. but it is small things like that. i am protecting myself. i think it is a big step he has my mobile number. i don't know this guy very well. he is a friend of a friend which i suppose is ok. but i am not giving him all my personal contacts. if something bad were to happen, i would have to change everything...including my personal email...and my mobile phone number!

i dont want to go through that. is what im doing normal? i just feel horrible. another thing i told him, is i don't like talking on the phone. while it is true....if i liked him, dont u think i could talk hours on end? i can't. thats not me. its at the point where i sometimes don't answer the phone....its not bc i dont wanna talk to him...its mainly bc he calls at the worst times. i just spoke to him b4 for 30 mins....i am being nice....but nothing is going to happen! nothing.....maybe in the future...if we happen to cross eachothers paths....but at the moment....i dont want to be in a relationship...esp long distance....

the kid is nice....but not for me.....what the hell do i do?



miss beckz

he msged? what the.....

Today I was at my grandma's house after work trying to get my homework done, when all of a sudden my phone beeps away. I thought to myself "it must be my bestie replying to a msg I just sent her".

I open the phone and the msg is from an unknown number. Hm this is weird. I open the sms and it is a msg from that guy I met at my friend's birthday party. He said hello and asked how things were, and told me he brought a mobile phone. You see, when I met him last week I asked for his number, he told me he didn't have a phone.

A bit weird isn't it? I thought it was just his excuse not to give me his number. So now he is msging me from his new phone. He has gone to the trouble of buying a phone and getting my number from my friend then smsing me. We made small talk and then he asked if we could catch up. I don't want anything from this apart from a long distance friendship, so I was nice and said yes. However we live 2 hours from each other and none of us wanted to make the journey to each others towns. So we decided that we would work something out at a later day.

I felt bad so I gave him my email address. It is the best I could do. I hate these situations.

We continued msging each other and that is all that has been happening.

I am a bit worried as I don't know him from a bar of soap, but he lives 2 hours away, its not like he is gonna knock on my front door anytime soon!

But i suppose he is my friend's friend and there is no harm in being friendly and having a good chat.

As i said in the previous blog, nothing is going to happen. Just Friends.

I am going to go with the flow and continue living my life.

Miss Beckz

he smiled at me!

went to the butcher shop yesterday......saw that cute guy mum wants me to date....(she has good taste).....he kept smiling at me.....maybe i need to pay him a visit more often....hehe

miss beckz

i don't think i could do it.....

I spoke to my friend today about the guy I met on the weekend. She hasn't spoken to him since Saturday night and has had a pretty dramatic week with her fiance (they have called off their engagement due to some circumstances).

She said he is a nice kid and will tell him I said hello.

But as I got thinking, I realised that I could not possibly go ahead with a relationship with his guy if he was interested.

I have my whole life here. My friends, family and career. I have worked so hard to get where I am today and I am not going to give it all up for a relationship with someone I hardly know. There is more too it, but I don't want to get into all the details. But I am doing this for myself!

I am willing to stay friends, but I am not going to travel to where he lives, and sacrifice everything.

I know it sounds mean and, if the guy is willing, give the relationship a chance, but I'm not.

It could not possibly work.

Why did I even play along with the idea?

So its in concrete- I don't want a relationship with this guy.

:D

Miss Beckz

massive weekend

Last weekend I had a MASSIVE weekend! It was my friends' 21sts and also my "come back special" (i haven't been on the party scene in a long time!)

Friday night was fun. It was just dinner with my friend's family and then the casino afterwards!

It was Saturday that was the real blast! We went to a nightclub for my friend's 21st in a private function room and was given free alcohol! So as you do you take advantage of that.

I wasn't drunk, but pretty tipsy. Anyways as the night went on, my friend introduced me to her friend, his name was Piggy (not his real name, but I am using his nickname here).

We spent the remainder of the evening (10pm til 2am) smiling at each other from across the room.

Cut a long story short, I made the first move and we ended up kissing.

Like every random hook up, I normally make a run for it, and avoid hanging around for the awkwardness.

As we left the nightclub we decided to go to the Casino and play the tables. I thought it was great opportunity to grab my friend and run back to our hotel and call it a night.

Instead, this guy grabbed my hand (fingers interlocked) and we walked out together!

It was a shock! Again, to cut a long story short we hung out all night and didn't leave eachothers view! We didn't get to know each other (although his fave colour is blue i think), but we did have loads of fun roaming the streets of the city!

The whole night we held hands, laughed, kissed and just generally had a great time! He introduced me to his mates and invited me to visit him where he lives (about 2 hours from where I live- country!).

I began the night thinking "i don't want anything from this", but as the night went on, I started to think differently.

I know it is crazy to think a long distance relationship would work, and with my career and uni commitments I couldn't keep up. Also he is nothing what I am looking for. The only thing we had in common was our football team! My checklist was thrown ou the window (which was an achievement in itself). He smokes, which I hate. He is into hip hop, doesn't study, works at the local supermarket in their town, and has no career options! He lives with his mum, brother and sister. His dad passed away last year.

At the end of the night, it was the awkward goodbye. Despite my reality thinking, I asked him for his number, but he doesn't have a phone which I thought was weird (but pretty obvious as I didn't see him with a phone all night.) So i didn't pressure him. I told him if he wants to catch up to contact me through my mate. Simple as that! We said goodbye and went our separate ways. That was at 5.30am on Sunday morning.

It is Wednesday night and I am still thinking about him. Is that crazy? He was such a nice kid and made me believe that there are nice guys out there. I see my friend tomorrow and will get the gossip about what he really thought.

If he wants to leave it as a hook up I will be relieved!

If he wants a relationship- that's when I am in deep water! What do I do? Yes I like him, but reality is.........

My plan is to stay friends and catch up if we are in the same town!

This is so crazy! How could I even think something could happen? Two completely different people, from completely different worlds!

What have I gained out of this? I met a really nice guy and had fun. It has shown me that there are nice, respectable guys out there (come on, he held my hand all night). It has also given my the confidence to find the one instead of hiding in the shadows!

Is what I am doing right? Or should I put it behind me?

I am not the type of person to leave things in the dark!

Miss Beckz

Any comments?

tick tock tick tock

does anyone feel like today is going really slow?

0_o

miss beckz

top gear t shirt......

i got my seriously uncool but oh so cool top gear t shirt in the mail today!!!!

so excited!!!! it is a size large because it is suppose to be for men! but i don't care because it is seriously cool!!!

:) :) :D

Miss Beckz

What if? What if? What if?

Recently I found out a friend of mine is leaving for the army overseas in mid November for 4 years. It came to no surprise as he was planning to do so sometime last year, but because of paper work etc it was delayed. So now he has signed his contract and is leaving for the army in a few months time. I found out from a friend of mine and remember my first response as shock. Even though we all knew it was going to happen one day, we didn't think it was going to happen today (figure of speech, he isn't really leaving today!). The thought kept going over my mind, "he is leaving this November for the army and I won't see him again for 4 years!". I stood there in complete shock. I didn't cry, I just stood there feeling numb.

I came home that day, sat on the couch wrapped up in a blanket and to my embarrassment spent most of the afternoon crying. How else was I suppose to feel? I told myself it was a stupid thing to do. But reality is, I am losing a friend (in the meantime). Someone who has been in my life for so long is leaving this November and won't be coming back for years! What also crosses my mind is, "will he remember me after all these years? What will happen in these four years he is gone? Will things be the same when he returns?"

Having all these questions running through my mind makes me feel numb inside. The future is kind of scary. What if? What if? What if?

I am happy he is fulfilling his dream, but what about the people left behind. His parents, family, friends, lovers. Everyone is going to be affected!

Another dilemma is do I either

(a) spend as much time with him before he leaves, letting our friendship bloom

or

(b) avoid him and go on with life so the final goodbye isn't hard

or

(c) leave things the way they are

There are so many questions going through my mind. But what I have decided to do is take each day at a time and deal with the final goodbye in November rather than now.

What would you do in this situation?

Miss Beckz

A baby boy

Congratulations to Gwen Stefani on the birth of a healthy baby boy on Thursday 21st named Zuma Nesta Rock.

I love her

Miss Beckz

i think i was a bit judgmental

I suppose I was a bit judgemental on that jock guy from Univeristy. He did end up adding me to facebook so i guess i was wrong. he is in a relationship which i don't care about. this is a lesson i have learnt. don't jump the gun and make assumptions and judgements

MB

Should I have done that?

So here I am sitting in my grandma's lounge room attempting to do my homework but all I seem to be doing is having little "Carrie Bradshaw" moments. Actually it is a cross between Miss Bradshaw and JD from Scrubs (I seem to be doing the tilting of the head movement and thinking).

I mentioned in a previous blog that I was going to confront that guy (lets call him Mr. IT) who ignored me for months and months. He didn't come back online, however I did the unthinkable (as I hate starting conflict) and messaged him (don't have the guts to talk face to face). I told him that I am disappointed that we don't talk like we used too and asked "Why is that?" It has been 5 minutes and I am still waiting for a reply. I know he won't reply. There is no need too. He has a beautiful girlfriend and doesn't need anyone else in his life. I am not jealous that I am not that beautiful girlfriend, I am just annoyed that he can flick people out of his life like he has done to me and numerous friends. It is not fair and he needs to know that.

It has been 10 minutes and still no reply. I am not holding my breath on this one. It is really disappointing. It's not like we had a fall out. Well not a massive one. I was annoyed with him and expressed myself. Does that mean you should completely give up on someone?

I know someone this has happened too and she was the one who initiated the end of the friendship. It was a build up of things and she just had enough. Her friend went around saying horrible things about her all because she spoke to her friend's ex boyfriend at a party. Something as pathetic as that made her friend turn her back on her. My friend was so fed up she ended the friendship- and so she should.

Mr. IT and I never had that kind of falling out. Although the annoyance did build up inside me. It was my fault that I lashed out, but I apologised and vowed to never do it again. How could he just end our friendship a few days after at the same time getting a girlfriend? Is is a coincidence? Or is it a way of telling me that he has moved on and doesn't need my friendship anymore? He could have said it to my face without playing these little games. 

I hope he got my message and feels bad about leaving me in the dark. Sometimes it is nice to have closure when someone is ending your friendship.

Miss Beckz xxoo

Would it be crazy if.....?

Last night I had a pretty funny dream. It was me hanging out at the pools with friends from primary school. Yes primary school. It was ten years ago when I was at primary school. I have caught up with some of my friends from back then but I was utterly surprised when they popped up in my dream last night. I was especially surprised when my first ever crush from primary school made an appearance.

His name was Robert and he was my first boy crush. I was in grade 4. I think every girl had a major crush on him. He wasn't the stuck up kind, he was generally a nice kid which is probably why everyone was so in love with him. I was one of them and can remember it vividly. The dream was of me and him finally catching up after all these years and my past feelings flooding back to me. We were in our 20s and completely in lust.

I woke up this morning in utter shock that he came into my mind after so many years. I have spoken about him  whenever I caught up with old primary school friends and we laughed about how every girl loved him. We all wondered what he was up too these days and if he was still the cute Robert from back in the day. We knew he moved house to some where far, far away and haven't seen nor spoken to him since grade 6 graduation. We searched him on numerous social networks but there was no trace.

So having this dream last night made me think "would it be crazy if I tracked him down?" Who knows what he could be up too. He could be rich, handsome and studying at University. Or he could someone with no future. Do I  really want to light the candle that has been burnt out for so long before? It is more the curiosity than anything. What is he like after all these years? I know I know, curiosity killed the cat, but maybe I can be the cat that got away. The curiosity and what if questions are killing me. I want to know what my first crush is up too, and like my dream, will my feelings come crashing back down to Earth?

I sat at the kitchen table this morning and opened up the white pages. I remembered his surname and where he moved too, so it couldn't be that difficult to find him. Oh how wrong was I. There were so many numbers under his name and where I think he lives. Lucky his surname isn't Smith or else I would be in trouble. It was too early in the morning to start ringing the phone numbers so I left it. I went to work having the question still in my mind. Would it be crazy? I still haven't got the guts to ring the numbers and need some back up.

I am seeing my best friend from primary school tonight for a hot chocolate and thought maybe I should ask her if I should (a) actually go through with it and (b) if she could hold my hand while I dial the number. I know she will disapprove but it is exciting. Even if I just talk to him over the phone and tell him he was mentioned the other day in a conversation with other people from primary school. It can't be that random, can it? I am not asking him out or wanting his friendship, I just want to ring up and be like "hey what's been happening?" (after 10 years or so).

Would it be crazy? It would be completely random and exciting!

What do I have to lose? A person I have never seen or spoken to since the 90s? It looks more and more tempting as I think about it.

Miss Beckz

xxoo

s

Initiating everything

I once had a really close male friend and our friendship began this time last year. As each day went by our friendship bloomed and bloomed like a flower garden in spring. We spent nearly everyday together eating muffins, cooking in the kitchen, playing Xbox, going for walks and playing with my puppy. We went to pubs and enjoyed an evening together until the early hours of the morning simply laughing. We were introduced by a friend and really got on well. I have never been so close and comfortable with a male in all my life. We were just friends but as it sometimes happens the feeling of lust or love creeps into you. I must admit I did have a bit of a crush on him but I didn't try and advertise that I did.

Late last year he began dating one of my friends but our friendship still remained closer than ever. At times he would choose me over his beloved girlfriend. When they broke up he came to me for comfort. I was there for him in the ups and downs. Soon after the break up he began to fall for none other than my best friend of 16 years. This hit me like a ton of bricks. I still smiled but it hurt inside. The lust didn't last long as he moved onto another co worker. Everyday he would remind me that he likes her and wants to ask her out. In true friendship I supported him. Again that didn't last long (to my relief). We wen through a rough patch to the point I told him to "f" off (I was extremely angry at the time and said sorry to him). That was probably the last time I hung out with him. A few weeks later he slips into conversation that he is in a relationship with someone and is happy. Another week later he moves to be close to her. I haven't seen him nor spoken to him since. There have been the occasional hello how are you conversations, but there have been no deep and meaningful conversations like we used to always have. He tells me life is great and spends all his time with her (her being this really nice girl I have met once).

Today as I write this I am talking to him over the internet which is our main interaction at the moment. We haven't spoken for many months and I refuse to be the one that initiates conversation or any action. I am guessing he is thinking the same way as we haven't spoken for ages. So today I decided to talk to him first and ask how things are. He is at work at the moment and leaves the computer quite often. I don't know if this is an excuse not to talk to me. But he did tell me to stay online so we can catch up. Talking over MSN is not my idea of catching up. I just hate having to initiate everything! I want to be friends with him again! I want to have what we had before. It seems that he now has a beautiful girlfriend and is happy, so there is no need for myself or his other friends to be in his life. Which is sad really. The aim today is to tell him that I am disappointed that we haven't stayed in contact and that he (and I suppose myself) haven't made the effort to keep what we had before. I have lost him so I suppose telling him how I  feel won't make anything worse. We always used to say to each other that the best part of our friendship is that we are so honest with each other. Well buddy I am going to be honest with you.

Wish me luck

 

Miss Beckz xxoo

 

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What I have learnt today

I am trying this new thing of writing down one lesson, experience or thing I have learnt each day. Today I have learnt that:

"the greatest friendship of all is when two people can still love each other everyday despite the ups and downs, each others flaws, disagreements, and can talk through their problems without harsh words or walking away"

I think I have found that kind of friendship :)

Miss Beckz

*thinking*

its such a gloomy day today, makes me want to stay home and cuddle up in a warm blanket.

I went to the gym today which always leaves me energized. My new skin care routine is going well. No reactions to the rosehip oil. Haven't had a pimple in days!

That "jock guy" didn't come to uni yesterday and I didn't attend the lecture anyways because the lecturer had an emergency meeting so it was canceled.

I am getting a facial tonight which is oh so special! :)

I really should be doing my assignments but this weather makes me feel blah

I am going to end with a quote from the Dalai Lama that caught my eye and I think it is something should live by everyday. I am going to start tomorrow :)

Every think as you wake up

"today i am fortunate to have woken up, I am alive, I have a precious human life, I am not going to waste it. I am going to use all my energies to develop myself, expand my heart out to others, to achieve enlightenment for the benefit of all beings, I am going to have kind thoughts towards others, I am not going to get angry or think badly of others, I am going to benefit others as much as I can"

Too bad the world doesn't follow this.

Miss Beckz

my bad skin

I have really bad skin. Well it is A LOT better than it was say a year ago (even a few months ago). I have tried everything from Pro Activ to Dermalogica and supermarket brands. Nothing seemed to really have a great impact. I have pretty bad acne and now it has calmed down but I have red scarring.

What I am using at the moment is Dermalogica's Anti Bacterial wash and Sorbolene to calm my skin down. I rarely use moisturizer and use a tea tree oil toner. I also apply spot treatment at night which works well. Every second or third day I also use a exfoliater srucb very gently as I am scared about using it because my face goes red sometimes.

My acne has nearly disappeared however it is the scarring that is annoying. I am using mineral foundation to cover it up, but I am not a big make up user.

So this is my skin care:
* wash with anti bacterial wash
* wash again with sorbolene
* toner
* sometimes moisturizer
* pimple cream at night
* make up when it's bad (just foundation and sometimes a bronzer)
* exfoliater

I have done some research on the internet and saw it in the Cosmo magazine and apparently Rosehip oil is really good for acne scarring. Is this true? I was curious and went out and brought a bottle. It was $20 which is a bit expensive for such a small bottle but it can be used as a moisturizer. Also some people said it wasn't good for oily skin but the packaging says it is good for it as it acts like the oil on your skin. I have tried everything else and I suppose it won't hurt to try it out. So I hope it goes okay and I don't get a reaction to it or my skin gets worse.

I also brought Nivea Oxygen Night Cream. Apparently it speeds up cell renewal which I suppose would be good for acne scarring? Does anyone know? I thought I would try it out. I got the night cream because I use enough crap on my face in the morning and have never tried a night cream.

So this is my new skin experiment. A lot of my friends have skin problems and it is up to me to try everything and give them feedback on different products! I am hoping these products help with my scarring, even a little bit!

Does anyone else have any handy tips for acne scarring or acne?

Miss Beckz

popcorn

Tonight while watching TV I had a craving for popcorn. I went to the cupboard and to my shock we had none. I couldn't be bothered to go to the shops so i decided to make popcorn the old fashion way! No not harvesting my own corn! But using the corn seed thingys I found in the cupboard and putting them in a brown paper bag with a tiny bit of butter! I kind of burnt the popcorn because I wasn't sure how long to microwave it, but it tastes good. Gets rid of my cravings!

Miss Beckz

i have to admit

I think I have a girl crush on Miranda Kerr....

*squeals* God I love her!

Miss Beckz

I joined a gym

Yes that is right people. I received a free two week pass at one of my local gyms and decided to (again) get back into going to gyms. However this is different to normal gyms. It is strictly women only so there is no men watching you struggle with the weights and you don't feel intimidated by young hot guys. Rather than having rooms full of treadmills and weights that I can never use, it is only one room with 12 working stations that are all cardio. In between each major work station they have platforms in which you spend 30 seconds jogging on the spot. In the room they have one or two older women helping you with the equipment and motivating you along. Another advantage is it is a exercise course and it lasts 30 minutes. Beneficial exercise is 30 minutes on most days, so it is really good for very busy women. Sometimes when I go to a normal gym I never really know how much time I have to spend on each machine etc. You begin on one machine, exercising to music until the tape tells you to move onto the next machine or jogging platform. After 15 minutes they tell you to take your pulse to see if you are in the heart rate range. It is that simple. You walk in , do the course twice which takes up 30 minutes, finish with stretches and then walk out. If you do that 3 times a week (which is what I am aiming for) it is really beneficial for health, mind and social life! I love it so much that I am considering signing up even after my free trial. The atmosphere is great and I benefit from the exercise.

 

Miss Beckz

 

xxxoo 

my "ouch" experience.....

I played basketball tonight and had to take all six of my ear rings out. Which I hate doing because the far back ones always get infected. I played the game and went home. Five of my ear rings went in without trouble. But it was one of the far back ones that was being a real pain. Literally a real pain. The hole half closed up which is weird because I didn't think that could happen within one hour. I tried and tried to get the ear ring in. It got to the point where I had to basically remake the hole in my ear with the end of my ear ring. OUCH! Yes there was a bit of blood. It didn't hurt so much. It was more annoying! Next time I play basketball I am going to tape up my ear rings! I can't afford having my ear lobes infected! Ew!

Has this happened to anyone before? How can an ear ring hole half close up within an hour? Weird.

Miss Beckz

xxxoo

My failed "pick up" technique

This is a quick run down of my situation. There is this guy (I can hear some groans) and I am totally not interested in him. Yes he is good looking, yes he is really nice, he might be available, but no I am not interested. I work with him (I don't believe in relationships with people from work, although at my dating rate I should consider it) and only recently found out that he attends my University and is in one of my classes. Freak out!

It was a complete surprise to see him in my lecture room (small lecture room meaning he was in my face the whole time). He walked in surrounded by pretty girls and acted like the biggest class clown. I knew from then that yes he is a nice guy but no he isn't my type. He spoke to me really enthusiastically during class and we ended up walking to our cars together.

The Monday that had just passed I was at University standing in front of the photocopier copying my lecture notes. Next minute the guy I am talking about walks over and says hello. For the first time in my life I did not feel scared, nervous or intimidated by a good looking guy. I stood there thinking "you're not my type". He came over to ask me for a favour which was to help him with his assignment. I was like "sure" (don't know why I did so). He was working with one of those pretty girls and I felt like the nerdy girl that all the hot guys ask to help them with their homework. Well I didn't really live up to my so called nerdy girl character as I had no idea what the assignment was. I felt bad and told him "sorry I have no idea" and walked off.

The whole day my mind was rattling about his assignment. Why was I concentrating on an assignment that has nothing to do with me? Is this because it's part of my personality or because that maybe I have tiny feelings for this guy? I came home and grabbed an old text book from my book shelf that I thought might help him. I thought about writing dot points from the book rather than giving him the entire book. But I thought not. Too obvious. So I decided in the end to give him the entire text book to borrow.

Of course there is method to my madness. You see, with all my University text books I pencil in my name and contact details, yes my mobile phone number. I thought I was a genius. Give him my text to borrow and he will magically come across my mobile phone number. If he is interested he will (hopefully) pick up his phone and call me. That was the plan. I had it all worked out. I was excited inside that I have actually considered doing this as it is so out of character. I mean I am shy and plus I don't even like the guy. But it was fun.

The next day I went to work. I saw him in the corridors and decided to tell him I have a text book in my locker that will help him with his assignment. It felt so weird. He didn't give me any eye contact and the buzz wasn't like last week when we first met at University. The innocent flirting and chats. I don't know if it was the work environment or maybe it is because he really isn't interested outside of the classroom. Maybe he really does see me as the nerdy girl that is only good for copying her work in class (which he did attempt once).

I told him I had the text book and smiled hoping for bells to ring in my head. All i got was, "I've already done the assignment and handed it in after I saw you on Monday". Thats it! No eye contact, so charm in the voice and no thank you for caring! Nothing. I walked away dissatisfied and thought "crap he won't be able to magically discover my mobile phone number".

My rare pick up attempt failed and deflated faster than a balloon with a hole in it. It was there and then that I gave up on any attempt to woo him into my arms. This was obviously a sign saying "give up". I guess I better get back to my perceived nerdy girl character for my class with him tomorrow.

Miss Beckz

xxoo

Guys and Nail polish. Is this a new trend?

I was at work today and noticed an increasing trend among the male population when I served them. I noticed that they were wearing nail polish. Not on one finger, but on all ten! Not only was it on every single finger, the colours consisted of purple and even red. I can understand a guy wearing black nail polish if they are punk, goth or emo. But a typical guy with brightly coloured finger nails? I don't understand. Is this a new trend hitting a shores? Please explain guys!

 

Miss Beckz

Where oh where is my Prince Charming?

Love and Life in the Big City. That is the name of my blog, however it seems the feeling of love is missing from my life (again). I have been so busy over the holidays that I haven't had time to actually sit in front of the computer and write my feelings down. I have been spending a lot of time with him myself and doing activities that he I enjoy. That is the best part of being single. Although it would be awesome to have someone to share life experiences with other than myself. I went to the MCG Tour a few weeks ago and thought "Gee, if I had a boyfriend he would have be totally excited to have come".

Recently there have been a lot of discussion about the so called "Man Drought" that is evident in our society. I must say I kind of disagree with the "Man Drought", because I know a lot of decent men out there. It's weird. I believe there is no man drought but I have no boyfriend. How does that work? Well it is very simple. I am, I suppose you could say, picky. I am not judgemental, I am simply picky. I don't want to date someone I don't see myself growing old with. I do have my standards and I carry around a checklist in my mind. I don't always follow my well worked out checklist, it is just guidance (although majority of my friends think not).

I keep my options open, but I am looking for someone that takes my breath away, that makes me wanting more. I haven't found that person yet. And there is nothing wrong with that. I do have my issues which prevent me from putting my heart on the line and embracing intimacy. But I know when the right man comes along all my insecurities, fears and self doubt will be thrown out the window. I hate the feeling of nervousness and self doubt when I am with a man. I want someone that will give me the confidence that I want and need.

It may seem like I am scared of men and the concept of dating, but I am not (well maybe a little bit). I do enjoy the activity of window shopping but because of who I am, I don't really consider purchasing any of the mannequins behind the display glass. It is just not me. I prefer to stay single at this age. And I prefer to look at guys as individuals to enjoy the football with on the weekend and to have a few beers with at the local pub. Of course, there is nothing wrong with that.

Despite loving the status of being single there is something inside of me that would want another half to enjoy life with, especially the small things in life. It seems today, wanting to share your life experiences is not the only reason to search for your one love. It also comes down to company and not wanting to die alone, to buying a house together and of course starting a family. When women get to the age of 35 +  their biological clock starts ticking and they panic in their search for a partner. At this particular moment I am not stressing too much about settling down (although I am a lot younger than 35- a lot younger).

But I have a feeling my own Mother is starting to get a bit worried about her only daughter (even though I am a lot younger than 35). I know my mum looks out for any potential males and I love her for that, but what happened today made me think "everyone wants me to find someone, apart from me". I joined my mum for a trip to the local butcher shop to buy our weekly meat. We went in and got served by an older man who worked there. Then this young guy in his early 20s peeps his head around the corner, looks who it was and turns away. After a minute or so he comes out and says hello to my mum. My mum swiftly introduces me to the butcher guy behind the counter without taking a breathe in between sentences.

I looked at her in disbelief. She is trying to sell me to the butcher guy. I don't want to date a butcher guy (he seemed pretty cute though). She was looking at me with those "talk to him" eyes and replied back with my "what the hell are you doing?" eyes. To avoid looking like an idiot I turned to the guy and said hello then quickly looked to the ground. So this is what it feels like, the whole "set up" scene. It reminds me of Bridget Jones Diary and the Christmas scene. My mum can't possibly be turning out like Bridget Jones' mum! My lovely mother is totally not the type of person to even look for a man for her daughter. But maybe she is starting to feel a sense of panic inside. I mean she found my Dad at 19 and married at 25. Maybe just maybe she has a feeling I will never find someone and feels obliged to help her daughter in the quest for her Prince Charming- where ever he may be, definitely not at my local butcher shop....or is he? I think our household has run out of mince meat. I think I might have to make a trip to our local butcher shop. Hey you can't stop a girl from trying. Right?

Miss Beckz

xxoo

The Little Things In Life

Some how in the past few weeks I have noticed that I am making the most out of the little things in life. These little things include sleeping in, reading a book, catching up with friends, spending time with friend's families, attending birthday parties, and laughing until your stomach hurts.

I have been on holidays now for 2- 3 weeks and have been a tad bit disappointed that I haven't accomplished many activities during my time off. I have gone away for one weekend but there haven't been any other road trips with friends etc. All I have done is sleep, eat, read, surf the web, shop, and watch numerous movies. But as I look back at my holidays I realise that it all comes down to quality not quantity like it is with most things in life. What I have done in my holidays is make most of the little things in life and I believe that is what matters when it comes to enjoying your time off and life in general.

I have spent a lot of time with friends even if it involves hanging out in my bedroom reading magazines and watching YouTube (what made us laugh till our stomachs hurt was an episode of Family Guy- type in family guy and the bullfrog and you will get what I mean).

I have spent a lot of time catching up with my greatest love- AFL football. I try and watch every game on the weekend and spend a lot of time working on my Dream Team on the Internet. I never hide the fact that I love spending every Friday and Saturday night watching my beloved AFL football. Many other people my age spend their weekends hitting the town, whereas I prefer to stay at home (nice and warm mind you) watching the greatest game ever made (I went out last Saturday night and ended up with a cold- never substituting AFL for a night out ever again).

With today's high rate of living it is just nice to stay home and enjoy the simple things in life like baking cupcakes while singing to your iPod, rather than driving hours away from home having your car engine suck up litres of petrol at $1.70 a litre. I'd rather camp in my backyard!

Now I would like to know what are some of the simple things you enjoy in life?

Miss Beckz

Trying it out

Trying out this new Windows Live Writer ....

It is such an easier way to write my blogs instead of going into a separate web page and writing.

It is also great for emails and feeds!

I am such an IT nerd!

I spent all today making dessert for dinner tonight. It is a chocolate chip biscuit cake with honeycomb bits! Yummy!

I am into this baking and cooking stage at the moment, maybe because my mini cup cakes went down to well the other day. They must have been so good because the man himself requested I bake him apple and rhubarb crumble! That is definitely a challenge I am so not willing to take on!

I've been lazy with the blogs mainly because I have been sick and have been spending most of my days watching sex and the city and reading The Notebook. I haven't gone out in a while (since Saturday) and haven't been inspired to write.

At the moment I am busy rearranging my email system with this new thing called Windows Live Mail. It makes a sound when a new email comes through. How cool is that!

 

Miss Beckz xxoo

when guys mention the unnecessary....

I am going to get straight to the point here.

Why do guys mention something in conversation when it is clearly not necessary to mention it? In one entire sentence they need to articulate how great their life is turning out to be, when a simple hello or goodbye is only needed. There is no such thing as “hello” instead it has been replaced with “Hello. How are you? Like I care because I have a girlfriend now and everything is great. Anyways I have to go now as my girlfriend is next to me in our bed”.

What a way to rub salt into an open wound. Did I really need to know that you are at your girlfriend’s house and in her bed at 1 am in the morning? This clearly means you are NOT planning on going home, which is something I do not want to know. And also, I did not even ask you about her or your relationship. What a way of slipping it in.

But why do guys do this? Is it simply their way of saying “hey I like someone…i.e. not you”? Or are they trying to reassure you that they are perfectly capable of sustaining a relationship with another woman? Have they moved on and not looked backed?

Or in my case, they completely knew you had a “crush” on them and just wanted to remind you that they are with “her” and not you. It is really necessary to mention all of this? And do they even realize that it kinda hurts inside? Of course not, they just want to make sure that you got the message that they are doing great without you. In all honesty, I don’t give a damn how great your life is going ever since you walked out, found a girlfriend and decided not to talk to me for an X amount of time.

If I asked you how things were with this “lovely” girl, then I deserved what I got, but I did not utter a word. Why rub it in my face? My life is great at the moment and I would consider myself “fabulous and single”. I don’t need to be constantly reminded by a man that a relationship would make my life complete and happy.

Miss Beckz

xxoo

My adventure of pink cupcakes and love

This morning I woke up bright and early to begin my day of baking cupcakes for the cousins of the man that I am truly in love with. I could not believe that I was slaving in the kitchen baking for a man! The cupcakes turned out okay. Presentation was hideous but the taste was yummy! I placed them in a container and began my journey.

I walked into his parent’s house to find his mum cooking lunch and him and his cousins eating soup at the dinner table. I greeted the mum and the kids and sat down next to my wannabe lover with a cup of lemon and ginger tea. We spoke about everything and I found myself thinking “I could get used to this”. It felt comforting to sit next to him and actually have a sober conversation. He also asked me about my trip away which was surprising that he actually remembered I went away. The mother also asked me questions and loved the fact I came over with afternoon tea.

I felt comfortable, happy and confident in his home, compared to feeling self conscious and low self confidence. I really believed that I could get used to this picture. I could really see myself as part of his family and part of his life. I felt at home. It felt right. We laughed, we discussed, and we smiled at each other. I have never felt so sure in my life. What calmed my nerves down was the fact that it wasn’t real, it was just nice to pretend for a little while. Reality hit when our friend came over to join us in play time with the cousins. It was still the same but the feeling of being “one” disappeared, however it still remained in my heart.

I mentioned in the previous blog that the way to a man’s heart is through food and I hoped deep down that it would happen today with my man. I don’t think he fell in love with me but he did enjoy my cupcakes nearly eating all of them himself! I think he appreciated it deep inside (at least that is what I like to think). I left his place with a warm feeling inside that I brought smiles to the faces of his cousins and that I got to spend quality time with him and my friend. Which made me realize that the reason why I spend time with his family and bake cupcakes is not because I want his love, it’s because I want too and that is who I am. I am just that kind of person who will do anything for a friend and I suppose it is polite to bring food when you visit a friend’s house. I don’t believe the main reason I do what I do revolves around my desire for his love, I think it is just part of my personality! But of course gaining the love of my life is a definitely a bonus on top of baking mini strawberry cupcakes!

Love Miss Beckz

How far will one go for love?

I have lost count of the amount of times that I have done something either little or big to win the heart of the man that I have loved for 2 years now. It is either the little things such as dressing up knowing I might bump into him, or the big things such as joining his family for Christmas Eve. As sad as it may sound there is always an egotistic motive behind my actions. I dressed up for his 21st not only for myself but to impress him and his family. I spent a lot of time with his extended family when they came down to visit especially when the kids asked where I was. Do I do this for myself or for the hope that one day he may ask me to hold his hand (I do love the kids though, and I am baking those mini cupcakes next time I see them)?

I can’t understand why I am doing this and why I am jumping at every opportunity to prove myself to him. Does his approval and/ or love mean so much to me? I remember one night I drank excessive alcohol just to show him that, “hey I can be like you too”. The thing that scared me was that I was conscious of my thinking. I put the glass down and walked out of the pub thinking, “why are you doing this? What are you getting out of it?” After two years I realized that I don’t know why I am doing it and I am getting nothing out of it.

Which leads me to the thought of the day, how far will one go for the love of their life? It seems that I am willing to “get to know the family” and bake cupcakes (I can’t bake to save my life) all to impress his family and hopefully the man himself. The sad thing is however, I know deep down inside he will never feel the same way as me but I still continue to persevere with all the hope in the world. Knowing the real me with any normal situation I would have given up by now, so why is this circumstance any different? I am baking cupcakes for ….sakes! If I am jumping through every hurdle in my way does that mean what I feel is real? I just want to be with him, is that why I am trying everything possible to show him I am the girl he should marry? And because I am not getting any immediate results but still thinking positive, is that why I continue to put myself through the heart ache of impressing this man, who everyone tells me is bad for me? I know deep inside that my hard work will pay off, and if it doesn’t, well I will feel pretty empty inside that’s for sure.

All I want to know is “how far will one go for love” and are these extreme actions normal in the quest for love? You see this kind of situation in everyday life as well as in the movies. Take the Notebook for example, Noah sacrificed his time and life building the house that Allie dreamed of, Allie of course being the love of his life. I mean he did write to her everyday for 365 days! And of course take the all time classic romantic story Romeo and Juliet. How much did either character sacrifice to be with the one they love? It is the perfect example of how far one will go to win the heart of their loved one. Of course my situation isn’t as extreme as Romeo and Juliet!

These examples do add warmth to my heart that a person who is head over heels in love can end up with the man or woman they have dreamt of. But I suppose they are only stories been told in 90 minutes or so. My story however will grow and bloom well after the credits have finished rolling, I just got to stay positive and continue doing what I can for the man I love. As the saying goes ‘the way to a man’s heart is through food’, who knows maybe my mini cupcakes will pull a few heart strings. Only time will tell.

Miss Beckz

Punk inspired outfit

Hey All.

Sorry for no posts this week. I have just come back from a girls weekend away with my mum. It was a jammed packed weekend with loads of things to do. My remaining time off includes no more trips away so hopefully i can sit down and get some inspiration going. I have been playing on Polyvore and decided to create a punk inspired outfit. So enjoy. I am now going to watch t.v and hope for some creative writing to hit me.

Cheers

Miss Beckz

It feels good to be back

Hey Everyone!

Well it feels so good to be back! University is now over including exams so now I have time to update my blog. I havent been able to update my blog at all during this semester. I am been under so much pressure, and thought i should use my writing skills for essays not my blog! but the feeling of writing again makes me happy. I am half way through a piece of writing about relationships (as usual) and i have some topics in mind. I hope you all enjoy my blog that will hopefully be updated more often! But to get your taste buds working, i have included a polyvore collection below. it is inspired by an Autumn day and Carrie Bradshaw!

Enjoy......



Love Miss Beckz

...because everything looks prettier in p!nk

luv is hard 2 let go of, even if u neva had it in the 1st place..

at first i was going to say "to get rid of", but then i realized it is not something i want to get rid of. i want to completely embrace it and learn from it. but when it comes to a time when a girl really needs to let go of something that makes her :) but also makes her :(

the feeling of happiness is when you realize you are in love...unfortunately you actually don't receive it in return....at all...nothing..not one little spark....isn't the greatest thing you will ever learn is just to love and be loved in return?? i have loved..it is the greatest thing....love lifts us up where we belong...all you need is love.... however, after so much effort, i haven't received it gifted wrapped in return.........

miss beckz

its been a while

hey all

its been a while....got exams at the moment...which always sucks...a lot more updates to come at the end of the month....

mb

studying sucks

I am so bored.....i am sitting at my desk with a pen in one hand and a blank piece of paper in front of me....what am i trying to do? i am trying to study.....yes it is that time of the year when uni students bury their heads in textbooks and try and relearn (or in my case- learn) 12 weeks worth of information in 1-2 weeks.....i have my relaxation music on in the background (i need some form of noise when i study), i have my T2 green tea (in my new T2 therma mug) next to me....i have a pen....some paper....my lecture notes...a textbook...but no brain..

well i have a brain but it is too busy in the next room planning mid semester holidays....getting excited over anything sex and the city related....writing study plans that i will not follow...thinking of sleep and food...basically everything non study related....it does not realize that i have 2 WEEKS until my first exam!!!! i have 4 weeks until holidays....why cant my brain concentrate for 4 weeks....just sacrifice these four weeks so i can relax and get good grades....but no...apparently there are more important things...like facebook....

argh!!! is anyone else having the same problem as me???? how the hell do the tame a wild brain like the one in my skull???? why cant i concentrate for at least an hour.....just one solid hour of studying....and to think i am contemplating doing my pHD....i cant even sit in my chair and learn about crime and victimization...let alone study at uni for another 6 or so years....

as i now come to the end of this blog or whatever you call it....i take a sip of my bloody hot tea...and begin a long night of useless and non productive study....

wish me luck....

miss beckz......

Missy has graduated from puppy preschool

Yay! Missy has graduated from puppy preschool! She got a certifcate and a ball toy. i am so proud of her!

Miss Beckz

this is what you need for a hot summers day

These are some items that you must have on a hot summers day like today (although it is not summer)



Miss Beckz

Cardigan's for this coming Winter...

Hey all

Now that I have discovered this cool new website, I can finally add some pictures of hot clothes to my blog. My previous Fashion Friday blog I wrote about what is in fashion for this winter. I mentioned that the one thing that will really be in style is the elongated cardigan. So as I promised (even though I don't have a camera) I have added some pictures. Enjoy



Miss Beckz

look what I did!

Hey check it out! Look what I created on this cool website called Polyvore.



Miss Beckz

Fashion Friday- whats cool for this winter.....

Hey all

and welcome to the second week of Fashion Friday. This Friday is all about the new styles that are in for this winter.

* Chunkier high heels

* big, chunky knitted scarves are in (Country Road have heaps)

* Chunky knits- such as a long, length cardigan (checkout Country Road- they have a light grey long knitted cardigan for just over $100)

* Leather- it can be in the form of a jacket or even a skirt

* Blazers- yes the private school look in finally in fashion- look bold! (check out Dotti)

* Tights (black or navy this year)

* Bangles are the hot accessory for 2008 (try Diva or even Sportsgirl)

* Boots over skinny legs are still the hot trend

* Also with shoes it seems the little booties are in fashion, taking over the ankle boots glory (check out Shoobiz)

* and finally a knitted beanie!

These are just 'some' of the items in fashion this winter. But the one thing that is going to go off is the chunky, knitted cardigan. I am definitely going to get one for myself.

Miss Beckz

(sorry for the lack of photos- mum has my camera)

* next week for fashion Friday i shall over go the hottest trends for this autumn

L'Oreal Fashion Week!!

Hey Everyone


On Monday night my best friend Karen and I went to the first night of the L'Oreal Fashion Show runway. We had such a fun time. We took the tram into the city and made our way to the place. We received so much free stuff. While lining up we got given free cookies and cream ice- cream. It was so yummy! We finally made it inside the building and were blown away by the set out. Photographers were everywhere, famous people everywhere and loads of women and men dressed to impress.

We found our seat and were greeted by more free stuff!! A free magazine, booklet and a Fashion Week fan. Yes a fan to cool yourself down. Finally after a 30 minute wait, the show began. And what a show! The music, the lights, the models, THE CLOTHES & THE SHOES! It was seriously heaven. We had so much fun, too bad the show only went for 30 minutes. I was having the time of my life. I felt so VIPish. HaHa. But seriously i do recommended all to go see a fashion show once in your life. It is a time to dress up and be blown away from the best fashion.

Here are some photos from the night:

This is the dress i wore on the night! I am wearing Portmans! HaHa.



This photo is what the shed (or building) looked liked from the outside.



Karen and I waiting outside to get in! It was such a beautiful day!



I know what you have been waiting for, pictures of the clothes and shoes;

How fabulous are these shoes?









And the lucky last photo is......





I had so much and got some half decent photos. i really need to practice taking photos of models walking past me.

Miss Beckz

xxoo

Things I Love Thursday

Hello Everyone,

and welcome to the second week of Things I Love Thursday (thanks to Gala)

* Paramore's album RIOT!- this album is really a piece of art. i love it so much. it is constantly on repeat on my ipod and in my car. it is full on angry girls music. the lead singer Haley is my new idol, however Gwen Stefani will always remain my number one idol.

* Back to University- as much as i hate going to Uni, i am actually glad i am back. no more full time shifts at my two jobs. i can sleep in and have my late nights. my brain feels like it is working again with all the assignments and readings due. the only thing missing is my money! but thats student life for you.

* wireless internet- ever since i have gotten wireless internet my lap top is barely off. i am up to date with my emails, blogs and even my uni work because now all i have to do is turn on my lap top and the world wide web is there in front of me.

* my friends- i am talking to my friend about guys and relationships. we both have the same view: they suck! and it has made me realise how lucky i am to have great friends. friends that i can sit around and spill all my problems. instead of sighing, they are actually attentive and want to help me. i am very grateful for the small, but close group of friends. i love them.

* Jimmy Bartel- yes the Brownlow Medal winner. i met him at the motor show on last saturday, and i think i am in love!

i think that is about it for the moment. this week has been hectic with Uni and work so i havent had a lot of time to really think of what i love at the moment.

miss beckz

xxoo

Paramore's album- RIOT! rocks!!!

if you love angry girl music or a decent rock band I seriously recommend the band Paramore! I brought their album RIOT! today from JB HIFI and I haven't stopped listening to it. I love the popular single "Misery Business". It is always on repeat in my car and the volume is seriously turned up! It is such an angry girls song, which I love! The lead singer is Haley and she is my new idol (Gwen Stefani will always be my idol though). She is 19 years old and is the only person I know that can pull off red/ orange hair! Their music is rock and I hate to say it (please don't be turned off by it) but it is slightly similar to Avril Lavigne- but so much BETTER! Haley can actually sing! The only similarity to Avril is Haley's voice. It sounds the same but better of course. But if you love the in your face, chick singing and rock music you have to buy their album! You gotta listen to Misery Business if you want a sneak preview.

Miss Beckz

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Dos & Don'ts on the first date....

Hello Everyone

Welcome to my very first “Special Feature Sunday”. It is basically similar to my long blogs I always used to write, however it will be only be posted on Sundays. Today’s topic is all about ‘First Dates’. My friend who shall remain anonymous went on a first date with a guy only a few nights ago. She spoke to me a few hours before going on her first date and was completely stressing out.

She had been sitting in her bedroom fully dressed, make up and all still waiting for the guy to come pick her. The thing that was making her freak out was the fact they he hadn’t organised a time or place for this first date, nor did he have her home address to come pick her up. I am completely serious. She had to message him to ask him what was happening that night only a few hours before hand. He told her he would message her before he leaves to give her 15 minutes to get ready. 15 minutes! Who can possibly get ready in 15 minutes? Especially for a first date!

Because remember- a first date is all about first impressions. And obviously this guy doesn’t really care about the impression he was making! I told my little anonymous friend that if he doesn’t turn up by 9pm to completely give up on him and go out for a night on the town with the girls! The plan was for them to go out for dinner then a movie! She was starving in her bedroom still waiting for him. There is definitely no time for a dinner and maybe some time for a quick flick! I don’t know if they actually ended up going on their first date, but for the sake of her I hope it went well.

So when it comes to the dreaded ‘first date’, what are the things you shouldn’t do?

Well number one is pretty obvious.

1. Don’t be lazy and leave the organisation of the night a few hours before hand. Organise a time, place and a pick up address the day before the night so you can both work out travel times and ‘getting ready’ times.

2. Don’t over dress. Keep it natural but classy at the same time. Put effort into what you wear but don’t make it as if you are self conscious. In other words don’t pack on the make up. If you have a pimple who cares. If he really likes you, he would like you warts and all.

3. I am sorry for being old fashion, but I believe the guy should pay for the bill. If you are funny with that idea, be polite and split the bill. However Kris mentions that if the guy asks the girl out on a date he should pay; if the girl asks the guy she should pay.

4. Don’t mention the ex boyfriend! There is no need to bring up the past when you are face to face with your possible future.

5. Don’t order spaghetti! It is a mess to eat and will make you look like you can’t eat to save your life. And don’t order a salad. Come on people it is not a meal and makes you look like you are worried about your weight!

6. Don’t over drink! Have a few drinks to loosen up but don’t let yourself get to the stage where you can’t control your behaviour or what you say.

7. Coming upstairs for coffee (or muffin or cookie- Kris!!!) is basically code for sex. I mean seriously who drinks coffee at 1 am in the morning? So if you want to ruin your chances of a relationship with this person (Kris however disagrees), please don’t hesitate to make your way upstairs for an espresso or a long black.

8. Don’t force the goodnight kiss at the front door. Make sure the kiss is 50/50 to avoid rejection and embarrassment.

9. Don’t spend the whole night talking about yourself, even though you really want too. Listen intently to the other person and ask questions.

10. Don’t message or talk on a mobile phone (thanks Kris!)


So there you have it, ten of the “Do’s and Don’ts” on the first date. I came up with a pretty good list even though I haven’t been on a first date.

I would also like to mention 2 concepts that I believe are important regarding the first date.

The Three Day Wait

Everyone knows about the “three day wait” (it varies with different guys- Kris follows the 2 day wait). It basically refers to the amount of time you should wait until you message to call the other person after the first date. I know it is horrible but girls actually wait days for a phone call or message from a guy!

I told my anonymous friend to wait 3 days, if the guy doesn’t contact her within those three days; it is time to say thank you and goodbye. It is not worth your time and emotion sitting around waiting for a “thanks for a great night, want to catch up again?” message from a guy. If, however, you receive a message that night or even the morning after that may be considered a bit too keen, which you can always interpret yourself.

But the rule here is- wait three days for a call or message.
The other concept is the Emergency Phone Call.

This is a little trick girls do when they are stuck in a horrible first date and need a way out. Basically you need a really reliable friend to assist you in this one. When you are stuck in the worst first date imaginable, make an excuse to go to the bathroom. When you are in the bathroom make a prank phone call or message to your friend.

This is a way of telling your friend that you are in trouble and need help to get out of your first date. Of course you should plan this before hand and tell your friend that you may prank call her or message her at any time during the night to help save you. Your friend waits 10 or 15 minutes, she then calls you while you are still sitting face to face with your nightmare.

When you answer your phone you are greeted by a crying friend who had just broken up with her boyfriend or has any other emotional issue. You sound concerned on the phone and tell her you will see her immediately. The next thing you do is bring out the actress within you and tell your date that you must get home to comfort your heart broken friend. Because remember friends always come first! It is the perfect plan to get out of the worst first dates ever.

To ensure a clean getaway you need to make sure there are no hiccups and that you can not possibly get caught out! It requires a very well planned out plan.

So there you have it, a brilliant blog all about the Dos and Don’ts of the First Date. It is one of the most dreaded but exciting times of your life. It can go great or fall to pieces right in front of you. If it does go the way you didn’t plan it, don’t stress. Obviously it wasn’t meant to be. Lift your head up and continue on your journey to finding the one.

Good Luck

Miss Beckz

Xx00

“Because everything looks prettier in pink!”

http://missbeckz.blogspot.com

Yes I did meet Jimmy Bartel....

Can you believe it? I actually met Jimmy Bartel (Geelong football player). It was at the Motor Show yesterday and this guy comes up to us and told us to wait in line to meet Jimmy Bartel! My cousin (pictured) had no diea who he was, but I sure did! I have a poster of him on my bedroom wall after he won the Brownlow Medal. I don't barrack for Geelong, in fact I barrack for the good old Bombers, but he is such a great footballer and is easy on the eye (so good looking in real life!). It was a great pleasure to meet a fantastic footballer! I felt like the room was in a blur, but it was worth it! Iwas excited throughout the whole entire day! After signing autographs, Jimmy Bartel spent the day walking around the motor show by himself. My cousin kept screaming out "Kylie theres the footballer you want to marry!". And he was right. There was Jimmy Bartel looking at the Lamborghinis! I could have gone up to him and gone all girlie again, but you gotta leave a guy alone when they are admiring such a beautiful car. Overall it was such an exciting day. I got a photo with Jimmy Bartel and his signature on a poster of the best car in the world- Ford. What a day to remember!

Miss Beckz (who wishes she was married to Jimmy Bartel- oh so hot!)

Fashion Friday- my style from the past summer

Hey Everyone!

Okay so this is my first Fashion Friday and I am kinda short of ideas! Oh no!

I really want to show photos from other websites but I am afraid of copyright etc. So I will have to go with the flow.

As it is the last day of summer, I thought it would be a good idea to go over my favourite outfits from the past summer. Contrary to popular belief, I believe the good old fashion girlie dress were in style this past summer. The dresses in which when you spun around moved with the wind. Almost like a Marilyn Monroe shot, but worse in my case. The colours that were in fashion were the pastel and baby look, for example the pink dress I am wearing below which is from one of my favourite shops, Valley Girl. The dress was $20 and one of the best “girlie” dresses I have ever brought for summer. Mind you this dress rocks when you are dancing the salsa!

Another piece of clothing that completely rocked my world was shorts! I even managed to have the guts to purchase numerous pairs of short shorts! I now have 3 pairs of short shorts. A black pair (see below), a dark denim pair (for night time) and a casual blue denim pair for everyday wear. I will one day take a picture of all 3 types of shorts to give you an idea. That can be my next project for my next Fashion Friday piece. But seriously shorts were a big thing for me this summer and I think for everyone in general. They were definitely a popular piece of clothing this summer.

My favourite outfit for this summer was shorts, a singlet top and my favourite gold sandals (picture coming soon- need the camera). It was really causal but smart at the same time.

My other favourite item for summer was my brand new BIG framed sunglasses! The only reason I brought them was because my Aviator sunglasses broke while I was out shopping and thought, “hey what a great excuse to buy a new pair of sunglasses!”

Aren’t they the coolest sunglasses ever? I love them and wear there everywhere!

So there you have it, my very first fashion Friday! Not as good as I hoped but I haven’t had time to research and go out shopping. I do however have the new copy of Cosmopolitan that has just arrived in the mail and on the front page it says “New Trends!” Hopefully it will give me some ideas for next weeks “Fashion Friday!”

In summary- what was in fashion in the summer that has just passed us:

· Girlie Dresses

· Pastel colours- pink especially

· Short shorts- denim or material

· Big framed sunglasses

Hope you all enjoyed that. Until next time remember- Steal from the best and make it your own!

Miss Beckz

http://missbeckz.blogspot.com

“Because everything is prettier in pink!”

exciting new blog page...

Hey Guys!!!

I know I have been a bit slack the past few weeks with my blogs, but you know how it is. Work and University all crammed into the one thing. So I came up with this great idea. Instead of putting enormous pressure on myself to write blogs every day or even every second day, I have decided to create special blog days (with cool banners too). So instead of both myself and you logging and getting disappointed because I haven't had the inspiration to write, you can log onto my site on certain days and get surprised. So here are the special days (with their cool banners too)





Things I Love Thursdays is well posted on a Thursday. Gala has really inspired me to really think about what I love, and Thursday is a perfect day to do so.

Fashion Fridays is on a Friday and is basically about fashion and what I love, not necessarily what's in fashion.

Special Feature Sundays is on a Sunday and is basically a long blog about a certain topic or issue. For example skin care products, first dates, relationships etc. This way it takes the pressure off me to write an essay long blog everyday, on top of Uni essays.

And last but not least ( I am still l thinking of added a few more days)

Weird Wednesdays

This day is really about me posting anything that is completely random. Quotes, photos, ideas etc. Anything that really doesn't fit anywhere. Weird Wednesdays might not occur all the time though.

So there you have it. Now the pressure is off both you and I. Well I better get started. Tomorrow is my first Fashion Friday, and I haven't even gone shopping! Eek!

Enjoy

Miss Beckz

Things I Love Thursday........

Hi Everyone!!!

Welcome to my Things I Love Thursday page (thanks to Gala Darling- check out www.galadarling.com). Gala created a blog she writes every Thursday about the things she loves! Gala encourages participation so I thought I should write my own. So here I go. Things I Love Thursday are:

• My puppy Missy
  

- she is the best thing that has happened to me since sliced bread! Yesterday was the day I realized that I really do love her. I took her to Puppy Preschool and she was so scared. All she did was cuddle up too me and looked at me with those eyes. I knew then that she loves me too.

• The new friendships in my life

- ever since July last year I have made some great new friendships. Over time these friendships have grown and grown. I am so glad to have some special people in my life. As time goes on and I experience new things (a job for example), I find myself creating new and lifelong friends along the way.

• The old friendships in my life

- as well as the new friendships, I must mention my old friendships. I don't have a lot of friends from primary school nor high school. But I believe it is the quality of your friendships rather than the quantity. I am lucky enough to have the greatest friendship with my best friend Karen.

• Lawn Bowls

- yes I know it is an older person's sport, but hopefully if the weather is nice to us, I am going to be playing lawn bowls with people from work tonight. I am so excited.

• Salsa dancing

- if though I am not that good at it, it is still nice to go out and learn something new. I never thought I could learn so easily. The social dancing after class is fantastic too. It's your time to shine!

• The weather at the moment

- i know it is not as good as a sunny day, but don't you just love staying inside, all nice and warm reading a book or watching a movie? I know I do. At the moment I am reading Jane Austen's Pride & Prejudice.

• The book Pride & Prejudice

- I reckon it is one of the most beautifulest books I have read in all my life (mind you are not a big reader). The characters are brilliant and the plot of romance is breath taking.

So there you have it, things I love Thursday!

Enjoy

Miss Beckz

xxoo